calm centre

The cyclone derives its powers from a calm center.

So does a person.

~Norman Vincent Peale~

and for me, the calmness comes only from the Prince of Peace :)

pictures say a thousand words :)

this is so much harder than i thought..

thanks for leaving me this..
im glad it kept u company for the last 6 yrs,
by ur bed,
till the very end.

its now with me..
till i see u again...

im missing u so much already.....

A Tribute to one of my best friends..

Hi dear,

I am sorry, been wanting to do this photo compilation for you for such a long time, but i procrastinated too long.
But i know you can still read this now in heaven..

Thank you for 10 years of friendship.
Thank you for showing me a glimpse of what being a real loving sister in Christ is like - you have been with me since i started walking with God, and i hope to see you at the end.

Thank you for being with me through the downest moments of my life.
Thank you for always celebrating my birthdays with me.
Thanks for always obliging my photo taking.

Thank you for just listening to me, for bouncing off the thoughts and for the great thoughts and reflections you always had.
Thank you for the many hugs, gifts, love and laughter you brought to my life.
Thank you for using our pic as your profile pic on friendster - i never got to tell u it meant a lot to me.

Thank you for putting up such a strong fight even towards the end.

Thank you for not wanting to meet up; u knew i was upset looking at you so sick.

Thank you for being you.
I will always hold dear the memories we had together...

album

2 different wakes in 2 days

Bye Bye

"This is for my peoples who just lost somebody

Your best friend, your baby,

your man, or your lady

Put your hand way up high

We will never say bye (no, no, no)

Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins

This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers

Lift your head to the sky

'cause we will never say bye

As a child there were them times

I didn't get it but you kept me in line

I didn't know why you didn't show up sometimes

It's something more than saying "I miss you"

But when we talked too

All them grown folk thinks

Separation brings

You never let me know it

You never let it show

becauseYou loved me and obviously

There's so much more left to say

If you were with me today face to face

[Chorus:]

I never knew I could hurt like this

And everyday life goes on like

"I wish I could talk to you for awhile"

"I wish I could find a way try not to cry"

As time goes by

And soon as you reach a better place

Still I'll give the whole world to see your face

And I'm right here next to you

It feels like you gone too soon

The hardest thing to do is say bye bye(Bye Bye [3x])

Bye bye

And you never got the chance to see how good I've done

And you never got to see me back at number one

I wish that you were here to celebrate together

I wish that we could spend the holidays together

I remember when you used to tuck me in at night

With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight

I thought you were so strong

That you can make it through whatever

It's so hard to accept the fact you're gone forever

[Chorus]

(bye bye bye bye bye bye [3x])Bye bye

forgiveness - food for thought

When you forgive someone, you slice away the wrong from the person who did it. You disengage that person from his hurtful act. You recreate him. At one moment you identify him inerradicably as the person who did you wrong. The next moment you change that identity. He is remade in your memory.

You think of him now not as the person who hurt you, but as a person who needs you. You feel him now not as the person who alienated you, but as the person who belongs to you. Once you branded him as a person powerful in evil, but now you see him as a person weak in his needs. You recreated your past by recreating the person whose wrong made your past painful.

its tough, but surely rewarding

April 28, 2008
What You Will Get

I will give your life to you as a prize in all places, wherever you go —Jeremiah 45:5

This is the firm and immovable secret of the Lord to those who trust Him— "I will give your life to you . . . ." What more does a man want than his life? It is the essential thing. ". . . your life . . . as a prize . . ." means that wherever you may go, even if it is into hell, you will come out with your life and nothing can harm it. So many of us are caught up in exhibiting things for others to see, not showing off property and possessions, but our blessings. All these things that we so proudly show have to go. But there is something greater that can never go— the life that "is hidden with Christ in God" ( Colossians 3:3 ).

Are you prepared to let God take you into total oneness with Himself, paying no more attention to what you call the great things of life? Are you prepared to surrender totally and let go? The true test of abandonment or surrender is in refusing to say, "Well, what about this?" Beware of your own ideas and speculations. The moment you allow yourself to think, "What about this?" you show that you have not surrendered and that you do not really trust God. But once you do surrender, you will no longer think about what God is going to do. Abandonment means to refuse yourself the luxury of asking any questions.

If you totally abandon yourself to God, He immediately says to you, "I will give your life to you as a prize . . . ." The reason people are tired of life is that God has not given them anything— they have not been given their life "as a prize." The way to get out of that condition is to abandon yourself to God. And once you do get to the point of total surrender to Him, you will be the most surprised and delighted person on earth. God will have you absolutely, without any limitations, and He will have given you your life. If you are not there, it is either because of disobedience in your life or your refusal to be simple enough.

thankful :)

i woke up at 5am again today.
but it wasn't an irritated type of waking up.
maybe cos for the 3 days, i actually managed to sneak a nap mid day.. so im happY :)

when 2007 ended, honestly, i thought life couldnt get any better
but these last almost 4 months have really been quite a blast!

of cos its been challenging
i have never worked so hard in school. ever.
not even in college, cos it was impossible to have 80+ contact hrs in one week ;P

but really thank God for new perspectives,
for being able to be thankful,
for being able to smile in difficult times
for being able to see people above business/situations
for being able to get a glimpse of loving without expecting return

and more imptly, to be able to love myself as God's creation
i have struggled with this all my life
not tt it's perfect now.. but i really am thankful for just who i am
and comfortable being just me.
i have my shortcomings, but i like to deal with them and do the best i can.

and also, to be able to love the now
im a very fwd looking person
so all my life, i worry forward
and cannot enjoy the now...

but for now, really, there's no better time than now
because it's only pocket of time i can influence :)

PS: alvin bro... looking forward to mambo on wED :P