thankful :)

i woke up at 5am again today.
but it wasn't an irritated type of waking up.
maybe cos for the 3 days, i actually managed to sneak a nap mid day.. so im happY :)

when 2007 ended, honestly, i thought life couldnt get any better
but these last almost 4 months have really been quite a blast!

of cos its been challenging
i have never worked so hard in school. ever.
not even in college, cos it was impossible to have 80+ contact hrs in one week ;P

but really thank God for new perspectives,
for being able to be thankful,
for being able to smile in difficult times
for being able to see people above business/situations
for being able to get a glimpse of loving without expecting return

and more imptly, to be able to love myself as God's creation
i have struggled with this all my life
not tt it's perfect now.. but i really am thankful for just who i am
and comfortable being just me.
i have my shortcomings, but i like to deal with them and do the best i can.

and also, to be able to love the now
im a very fwd looking person
so all my life, i worry forward
and cannot enjoy the now...

but for now, really, there's no better time than now
because it's only pocket of time i can influence :)

PS: alvin bro... looking forward to mambo on wED :P

why i heart the weekends :)

lisa's birthday

happy birthday!
thanks for wunderful evening my dear :)

God willing,
looking forward to our beach trip,
hopefully working together,
many more trips,
and lifetime of friendship

really tired but can't get to bed

real sign of stress when im really tired, physically and mentally, but haven't been able to zzzz :(

understand how sheela feels when she cant get to bed! then u r stressed about not being able to sleep.. then it goes into the cycle..

but its nice to catch breakfast with my parents :)
and bought a new phone. kek. satisfied my lust at $268 *grinZ*
and booked our tour to bangkok!! yay!!
and catching up on anime
and playing around with my new toy :)

things will get better.
full day seminar on prayer tmr! yay! shud be good cos im needing it :)

people - the reason i love cnY :)

cny :)

it didn't strike me till 3pm today tt my brain has shut off
as usual, only when im forced to a stop, i realized how tired/high-strung i haf been
so thank God for the break!!!

last few days was also testimony to myself tt my emotional maturity has really stepped up
i guess its time since im already 25 :)

but its nice to just be comfortable being myself
mebbe many pple have had the luxury of that for yrs, but for me, its such a privilege!
and sorry for making some pple worry
yes i was sad but i also dun stay sad for long

life has so much more instore =)

am i so cryptic now.. oops

oh oh and nodame cantabile rocks!
so reminiscience of my band days!
thanks jem for the link :)

eh and oh, i think i mentioned this before, but i love cny bcos its probably the only day in the yr that most shops are closed in singapore. i like the fact tt pple wud take time off to be with the family. and bcos pple EXPECT stores to be closed, they stock up beforehand.
but then in this yr, i noticed many stores remaining open :( not v good sign le...

and finally.... blessed cny to everyoneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee =)

thank God for the week past

im a proud survivor of the last week :)

thank God that 3 big meetings went well despite self-afflicted mental torture, lack of sleep and clobs that made me reach home at midnight :P

and more imptly, im thankful for a more sane frame of mind this weekend.
pampered myself w eyelash perm and eyebrow trim yday.
and finally bought a red dress for cny.

looking forward to meeting jo ltr!! and dg gathering tmr!! :)

2 learnings this week

1) im so super impressed w my big boss!!

oh gosh, i wunder if i can ever be such a salesperson.
good memory, perfect pitch, able to read other's SUPER SUBTLE body language and react accordingly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im thoroughly impressed and hope i can be like that in 10 yrs too :P

2) i overstress myself way too much at the start

whenever i get a task, i run thru it in my mind nad the 5 million things that can go wrong
its kinda protective mechanism cos then when things do go wrong, i have anticipated it
but its also v unhealthy cos it makes things up to be what it may not be. as in, it may not be so bad, and that usually is the case.
so i basically stressed 150% for nothing..

ok other than tt, im really gonna soak up the weekend :)
this morning's run was soooooo good...

impressed..

even though i havent followed the chinese music scene for many yrs now,

but i love the evergreens he sang - wen bie, one thousand reasons to be sad etc..

beautiful music never fails to move me :)

really wunderful God given voice.

so rich voice even when he was reclining in a chair/jumping up and down/post-screaming/singing after 3.5hrs

truly impressed with the voice and stamina.

thanks sl for going w me!!!

next time got good artiste - we shud get full priced hah :)

pretty insane weekend

the last week has been extremely fulfilling

tues - met shuling and litong together after so many yrs!!

very nice.. my angel-mortal and adopted angel.. hah =) bestest seniors i had in jc.

wed after adult's meeting - managed to haf supper just 3 of us gals. was good fellowship :)

caught this cat outside nydc. its so cute and round i wunder if they fit it every night :P

then had a weekend jammed packed of activities..

fri - following a very high strung day at work that had the whole mdo b*tching, met dear cuiwen to celebrate her birthday. time flies ya.. quarter-century already =) god willing, may we have man more yrs together!

and thanks for the cupcake!! very nice *yummy*

also caught golden compass. not as athetist as i expected! even tho nicole kidman was pretty useless in the show.. the 13 yr old gal was good tho. must be tough on such a young gal to be away from home for so long to film!

sat - dg retreat to west coast

the pictures say a thousand words :)

first time i actually touched a kite :P

thanks long for the 'excursion' haha..

then after fretting the whole afternoon about what present to get.. later in the evening...jac's birthday celebrations @ boiler room!

me and birthday gal BEFORE she got wasted on the flaming drink :P

all the pretty gals :)

sun - after church, colin's rainy baptism..

im pretty tired.. but its nice to be busy.. bcos at least

im obsessing about other people in love ;)

the beginnings of december

even tho i haf been struggling (real emotional tussle hah) with God about some stuff, but still many things to give thanks for =)

some random stuff
- neutrogena advanced peel + sk-II intensive whitening mask = lethal combination. my skin feels like baby skin :)
- exercise is good. makes me feel good!!

aniwae, been trying to catchup with friends and God's people since returning from the trip..

colin bro.. and he dragged me shopping for a suit!!


his super cool iphone!
ill get if the cam is 3.2 or 5! :P


DG chalet + my dear yiling's birthday



so happened to witness an accident down the road..


nice lunch w colleagues on friday despite month end closing =)



and my parents brought me shoe shopping..
new asics pair in 3 yrs =)
so my 1st birthday present even before december! thanks!!




weekend family lunch..
sleeping nefew..so cute :)



dinner @ MOF before luo zhi xiang's concert
enjoyed myself with the complimetary tics even tho dunno most of his songs..

why i heart weekends

bleh

sick.. down with mild fever and aches all over
feeling blueeeeeeeeeeee

home on a saturday bcos im drifting in and out of consciousness..
wakin up only to eat and take medication..
and catch up on anime..

i hope i recover in time for tmr's diving clasS :(

at yet another threshold..

just a cheem title week for being an another week's end.
only thing breaking the routine is i gotta go to work in a couple of hrs and come back super late. oh wells..

in the last week, i established my fave choc and its this - ROYCE!
beats the godiva i haf tried.. hah


also tried getting used to a new cutie alarm clock (tt matches my tissue paper block cover, seatbelt cover... u get the idea.. :P) tt liyi gave me


cleared the theory lessons...


tried kampong chicken for the 1st time..


and yesterday, im glad colin called while i was out with my grandparentS!
managed to meet up last nite.. welcomeeeeeeeeeeeee back!!

and caught some fireworks!
apparently, there r fireworks that disperse in a cube form. so cutE...
wud love to see thosE!


we walked and walked and finally arrived at canele, robertson walk!


that produces GIANT wedding cakes, and nice small deserts :)


i love this rose teA!


then off to chinaone for drinks and chill............


secret people watching..


great sausageS! surprisingly!



and more beer and chocolate..



and guys, u HAVE to see this! happy feeT!



and YMCA! hah..



also wanna thank God that lixuan came to church today, for the 1st time in a long time :)
welcome u back gal.. i hope to see u every week!!

diving practical 1 was a tad tiring..
didnt think that oxygen tanks cud be sooooo heavy
and getting choked under water can be scary
but i hope i can overcome this
and not be scared in the real waters

*do not panic....... breatheeeeeeeeeeeeee*

much better weekend than the last :)

just got back from 5km slow jog.. sweating but oh.. feels so good ;)

i conclude my weekends cannot be too free, if not ill think too much!!

i cant seem to upload any pictures.

anyhow, friday night was good dinner w my RAs, celebrating the birthday and our achievements for the last fiscal :)

then im glad we finally got round to going to the submersibles, and most likely will be going for diving trip during the national day weekend w my cousin!
its just been something i wanted to do but never got ard it. good thing alot of pple in my company dive.. so yay!!
they say its good for people who need to learn to let go (unfamiliar open space in the waters.. )
SO looking forward to it!!

mr shadow from dive school :)

sat was fel's birthday!
harry potter 5 was so-so.
its still entertaining BUT i feel it cud have been longer.. especially the fight at the end!

stealing a shot at cathay

catching up at cafe iguana over magaritas is brilliant on a lazee afternoon.
yummeee.....

thank God for such old frens :)

doing our silly thing.. hee

very unusual gobi cakes :)

and durian w my parents. they were so happpppppyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy hah

church was quite... i dunno.. i think my brain juz switched off
and liyi and i starting doodling on each others' paper
as usual
tsk.. sigh :)

and we had TWO lunches.
madness
japanese at tamako

then humongous prata at casuarina curry.. w my DINOSAUR frens :P

does tt explain why i needed a jog??????????????????? :P

urms friday. again

im running out of ideas for my titles even.
its freaking friday. my goodness..

great week work wise.
feel like im on some career fast track
honestly i think i wun be able to deliver everything asked of me
but i can try :)

and most imptly, i finally got round to starting diving
targetting to go national day weekend!!
yes im a water baby after all
and that wud be a very good break
cos dayang got no reception hahahah

oh the clear waters.... fishes...... corals............ here i come :)


weekend............ happy birthday fellie dearie!!

yet another..

yet another weekend gone by.
i still appreciate it but even weekends are becoming routine?

anywayz, my Nameless experienced its first servicing yesterday!

and im amazed at how pris can still eat, shop and talk coherently after so few hrs of sleep in the hospital but it was nice :) nice dress.. im still thinking whether to get that top haha..

and a little inspired by the ettusais we saw yday, i tried something new on my nails with what i had at home.. and *tadah*..... i think its quite nice :P


was in pain for most of today. cramps :(

but glad the jc band gang managed to meet up.
i missed u lots jz deAR :)


and happy birthday amelia!! the guys can be so sweet right!


and say hello to my new wristlet
*muakz jinzhan* i L.O.V.E. this
thanks. its gonna accompany me clubbing k :)
and so r u! hah

thank God for all the happy times ;)

unusually packed weekend

i actualli sat thru half of initial d movie today.
i watched it before but i missed the anime so much so i sat down to catch it.'
i think im not quite typical gal in the sense tt i really love cars and racing, esp after owning my own car.
helps tt the guys driving in the show r cute. muhaha...


anyway, dis is meetup with my 2 closest primary school friends.
perhaps one of the few pple that will make me venture into totally unfamiliar ground w my Nameless to drive them home :)
15 yrs of friendship.. thanks gals!!

i woke up sleepi on saturday.. and look at my darling.. talk bout lazeeeeeeeeeeeee

rushed off to catch bfast at adam road food centre

then i met shawna and daniel AND joan's mum

so popular place for bfasT??

missions training was good reminder, but lacking depth for me.

kinda wished they din cut it short..

late lunch @ waraku, central

best frens with 'similar' new earrings :P

JC class gathering!!

over pool! i tell u...... i felt so OLD stepping into K Pool

playing chinese songs i actually KNOW (means >10 yrs old)

but still, very reminiscient of JC days definitelY!!

jianlin.. thanks for organizing

and arm......if u r reading, quickly come back! my pool teacher hah..

then i think at least 75 min of driving (thanks for GPS *urghs*), we finally reached moses place @ marine crescent for informal ministry meeting

moses cooking and the gang

the sweet wine was yummy :P

family service was so cute today.
i missed u pastor chris chia!!

meixi's super cheem book

and lunch w my parents + liyi @ liang kee which liyi never go before. yummyyyy

and so i did the exercise i promised myself today. bet im gonna sleep better :)

PLAY - the foto whoring

HAPPY BIRTHDAY derrick :)
and merry new start to your career ms. a!

play's 3rd year anniversary show

fun gang

me and the cousins


the guys doing their gay stuffff... :P

brighter pics with the sony ericsson..

dec, we r so using ur fone nx time..

i have been doing a lot of thinking these few days

it was difficult to see how far i have drifted from the narrow path until i came back.

ok i wasnt like backsliding; i was lukewarm. which is not good anywayz.

tasting the sweetness of God that nothing else can bring :)

its quite hard to explain whats like.

ly and i prayed on the fone yesterday. havent done that in a longggggggggg time

the right perspective; thats why we need bros and sis to walk together

seeing what the bigger world is like out there has made me a little...

ok, jaded is not the right word..

its made me understand what my life might be like without God

what are the moral standards? what is good/bad? what is the yardstick?

i read this speech by bill gates.

i wud like to be more concerned about income inequality.

but i lack the love...

i used to pray for the lost/mission work/the poor but haiz

after seeing the poor in india, vs how we r spending as a developed country (including myself lusting after branded expensive stuff), i really think i cud be more charitable.

but yet, its such a struggle to part with money and time..

anyway, im a bit slow when it comes to nightlife.

i know pple probably sick of clubbing/nightlife by the time they reach my age because they did so much of that in school.

for me, besides ubc days, i hardly ever got to go out last time.

my curfew was like 11pm so not much point going out last time. hah

anyway i used to be like my mum - a little judgmental bout people to club and drink a lot.

but to be honest, i enjoy clubbing a lot. i love grooving to the music

drinking wise, not much.. anyway i dun like using alcohol to get drunk cos then totally lose self control which is not good!!

everything is permissible but not everything is beneficial

been reading this book on spiritual discipline.

its true that we can spend so many hours working out for a toned body, but can have such flabby souls.

so in tandem with trying to be physically healthier, i shall start flexing some spiritual muscle to get them pumped up.

as a start, it must begin in the mind :)

a bit incoherent post.. just random thoughts...

나는 너의 생각하고 있다

play..

im back from my virgin trip to a gay club.
im so awake, and i survived.
of cos i did because i wasnt the gender endangered!! :P

very interesting sight but i think i still might be a little afraid if i dun personally know the person because it just wasnt so comfy for me on the dance floor. i dun nuthing against the people really. i think im just not used to it bcos its more rowdy than zouk/mos.

anyway music and drinks were WAY better than last week zouk.
supper over porridge was damn funny.
dec and gang, be sure im going to remember ur pigeon joke. haha..

okie i shud try to sleep. u bet there will be pics :P

thanks alv (ng) for organizing!!! whats up for the next birthday celeb??? :P

friday!!

its friday again.
and once again, im amazed at how the week flew by.

im downloading the sermons from church camp.
felt a little guily bout not going.
bcos if i noe if i forced my way thru, i cud have gone but i sorta chose not to.

but aniwae, my road to recovery is good.
i enjoyed devotion this morning :)
i loaded my Nameless with hillsongs cd
and i sang driving home today!
yesyes i drove my Nameless today but thats beside the point :P

i know its not bout feelings but it 'feels' good...
saying "this is my desire to honour You.."
and really meaning it and trying to live that way

okie!! im going off soon to visit gay club w my colleagues!
tmr pple r coming to fix my work-fr-home stuff
then out w my gal pals..
then church!
and fathers day!!